Expecting my miracle to come, in His timing

As u all know, i'm looking out for a new career, not just a job.

And the process of going for interviews got to me. I became frustrated. Going for interviews upon interviews, feeling very c2p (learned this from Elvin) and wasting time.

I knew there were some positions that i really wanted. Yet, hope deferred makes the heart sick.

I was really waiting for Giant to get back to me, regarding to the Learning & Development position. Until today, i have waited for about 9 days already.

I felt so frustrated on the inside of me. I felt like ranting and crying and screaming, just to vent it all out.

Yesterday, the CG message was on expecting for a miracle for the Arise and Build message. And i knew that the message was really speaking right into my heart. The presence of God was tangible, and i felt that i, too can expect for a miracle in the area of my career.

I went home, i ranted, screamed, cried..... vented my frustration. I asked God if He really loved me, why He allowed me to go through this kind of shit. I cried and cried, i ranted and ranted. .... And Jeremiah 29:11 came into my mind. It happened to be a word that God spoke to me through Brandon, on the week before i left for KL.

I started to meditate on the word....God's thoughts towards me is good. He has a future for me.

I doubted.

I cried, i told God, that i can't see where my future is.

I meditated again..... God's thoughts towards me is good. He has a future for me..... God's thoughts towards me is good. He has a future for me......

I started to do the thing that was mentioned during the sermon. 1) Admit that you have a need. 2) Assess what You have. 3) Give God what you have 4) Expect a miracle to happen. I can only meditate and trust God for the miracle to come. I want to give what i have.... for the Arise and Build. I need a miracle, before the A&B.

And i said a final prayer. I know i can trust God for my career. Though i have 3 more weeks to go before i really have to make that significant change. I know that God's timing is always on the dot. Never early, never late. But it's a very painful time for me. VERY PAINFUL. But i know that this thing happened so that i can eventually become a stronger person.

Today i went for another interview, it's with a online marketing/events company. They seem to be interested in meeting me up again for 2nd interview. And if i really get this job, i get to not just do Training, but also all the administration, implementing of policies in the organization. I would be required to travel to KL once in a while. I hope they mean what they say. They are interested i guess, since they wanted 2 referees. I got Tony, who graciously agreed to help (Thanks so much!) The other one.... hmmm. I dunno yet.

If this is the place for me, i hope i get a good offer. If not, keep on trusting God lor.


Hazy season
Because of the fires in Indonesia, for the past week, the skies in Singapore has been overwhelmed by a cloud of Haze..... On Tuesday, the PSI was 73, the highest for the year. Today already beat this record, at 88. People are complaining of respiratory ailments coming back all over again.

People started to complain of the foul smell. If my air purifier can talk, it will say that i'm really punishing it. Been keeping it on since i came home. People started falling sick. Ivan behind me has a often-runny nose. I guess he will have to chase his nose more often. Alan was coughing, and was on mc today.

Everyone is feeling uncomfortable. Argh!

Going out, you can see the haze clearly. When i was in the Gym, i looked out of the window, and i can't even see the tall buildings in the CBD. It's that bad.

If this goes on, think i should get ready my mask and more air purifiers!