Syantology

I love the fact that i can meet up with my school chums once every one to two months.

It's really great where friendships built in school can continue to last 4 years after graduation.

Last time, we'd bitch about this certain fella who's always yaking and complaining about group and school work, projects etc etc etc. Fastforward to the present: We'd be talking about our work and life and the many frustrations that we share at one go at our bi-monthly gatherings over dinner.

Recent topics has been hovering about our work. We'll share about the frustrations at work, and though we are in different arenas of work, but it seem apparent that the issue of salary is always at the tip of our mouths, and working relationships in the company that piss them off.

Yesterday, i met with my chums. And just randomly i just asked aloud, like, what would happen if i chose a different path, what will i be doing now? How will my life like this be different from how i've really lived my life?

Generally, it really boils down to what u really want to do, seriously.

I'm fine with doing administration, as i dont' need to worry about sales figures and stuff like that. But, it's been getting to me that:
1) My role is 包山包海, which i have an opportunity to learn more things. But it can get to be TOO many things. Wait till everything needs your attention at the same time, you won't be able to finish them, even if u are an octopus.
2) It's a thankless job at times. Ppl only recognize what u did not do, and not what u have done. It's pathetic, sad but a painful truth.
3) You bear the brunt of bad things, which is self inflicting. One word of advise: Learn to protect yourself. Don't give others an opening to shoot u down.
4) This may not be what i exactly thought it should be. What you visualize and what it really is, at many times, are all opposite. Life is a bed of roses, where it has many thorns, which prick u and make u learn.

Word of Encouragement: What does not kill you will make u a stronger person.

At times, i do feel myself reaching there, just hanging there on a thread. Imagine just dangling there for a long while, and wonder when will the thread break.

I seem to be hanging on the thread now. I've been here a few times. And every single time, i told myself to hang on.

Do i want to hang on? Yes, definitely. The blows are great, but it didn't kill me. It will make me stronger. It did for the last few times, and it will do this time.

Syantology has kicked in, slowly and surely. Have to watch it closely.