Informing my parents...

Going to SOT is not exactly something that is as simple as saying that you want to study.

This is one area that i really need a breakthrough in my life.

U know ah, when i made the decision to want to go for SOT, I know that definitely, parents will say some things.

I tried once, remember?

Was only 20 years old, fresh out of my graduation from Advance Diploma. Made a casual remark about going to SOT. And was diao ... Had to study.

Remarks include:

"You want to go to bible school?? U want to be Pastor or nun is it???" (Wha biang, talk about being shallow.... Going to bible school doesn't make u a pastor/nun, just like if u happen to be in MacDonald's, that you are definitely a Fillet-O-Fish??? )

"Study this got use meh? Don't waste your time la"


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Fast-forward 8 years.

Showed my mom something. And suddenly have the urge to tell my mother.

Maybe i've started it the wrong way..... told her maybe that i wanna take a break (Yikes.... copyrighted from someone i know), for a bit and do something else.

Her eyes twitched. She knew what i wanted to do. And SEE!! Putting the SOT form there so blatantly, it's hard to miss. I think she foreseen this day coming.

Her remarks are the same:

"You want to go to bible school?? U want to be Pastor or nun is it???"

"Study this got use meh? Don't waste your time la"

(new one) "Tired after working for 4 years? Me leh, work 25 years, more tired, but didn't think of stop working totally" (bad choice of starting line)

Defended the period of study at 5 months (ok that's out of desperation on my part, i really want her to see that i wanna do it).. which did nothing.

"U better don't let your father hear what u want to do"

"Doing it part-time is fine. But not just study and and don't work"


The conversation sounded a bit heated, but immediately, she was all smiley again... As if the conversation never took place.

I was kinda sad initially... but when i came back to my room, i recaped what was said:

"Doing it part-time is fine. But not just study and and don't work"

It brought a smile to my face. SOT is only part-time mah... 9am - 1pm is only half-day lor.

Also, what the.... i'm already 28. The conversation is meant to be an information thing, NOT to seek an approval. I do what i wanna do. My part is done in which i've informed. Whether to accept it or not, it's all up to me.

I can work part-time (but that's for part 2), for 4 hours for the next 5 months.

I guess i need to plan out my time more properly next year. I'm taking mental notes of the humongous pile of assignments waiting for me next year.

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Hmmmm , now's not a good time to tell COY about me going to SOT next year, i'm still praying and seeking for favor and a good solution that it work best ways for us. Best is i can still work half-day, but for my scope of work, all the 'exciting' parts are all happening in the morning.

And i want the best for the company too.

Guess the informing part 2 will really akan datang until a suitable time.

For now, it's back to training myself to wake up early, to really get into the habit.

Whatever it is, I'M SO SO SO SOOOOO EXCITED ABOUT SOT!!