But then, there are things that happened that the feeling of CNY was somewhat forgotten in my own little closet.
I gave the letter to my boss last Friday. It was a tearful time of me sharing my reasons with my boss, the "No-growth-progression" thingy, the financial burdens and the tiredness from tuition that i will go through during Bible School, and not forgetting the numerous assignments that will pile up...
My boss is really one nice guy. He didn't say whether if he accepted or not. He just wanted to understand the situation which led to my decision.
For me, i think i've been here about 2 years plus. And coming to this decision has been long confirmed in my heart, though i turned one big round. Sigh, the love for merry-go-rounds. And u know me, as a very emotional person. Yeah, i couldn't bear the thought of leaving yet. I guess, my contributions are not much, but i guess it's the relationships here and the rapport i've built with my boss and my fellow colleagues that has been nurtured over the years, that makes it hard. And it's even more especially when i DO want to fight through with everyone at this season in time.
In the midst of unknown tears streaming down my face, i felt a verse prompting out of my heart.
Ahhh... this is a very familiar passage. And how apt it is that this is the verse that is so strong in my heart right now. Giving the letter has made me throw caution into the wind, and though i know that this is the best, but i know that my heart didn't feel hopeful about what will happen in the months to come.
Especially in this economic downturn. Ppl wanna hold on to their jobs, whereas i'm going against the wind.
I guess there's gonna be more prep talk when i go back to office next Monday.
I'd love a win-win situation where i won't compromise Bible school and finances and my work with the company. Everyone is happy then.
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