Tired... sadz.. not very lah

Today is a really tiring day for me. Yesterday i was helping out at church for the "Emerge Conference - Preaching challenge". It was really fun... I was helping the contestants to take their shots from Bro Kim Hock's digicam... hmmm.. i'm a suaku [mountain tortise] regarding that.. but i just take only lor. But it was really a great time. Thank God there's no tuition after that [my friday kid wanted it on saturday].. I was so tired, that i fell asleep on the bus. And mind ya, i don't usually fall asleep on the bus.. so can see the magnitude of my tiredness.

Today's tuition was really terrible. Woke up late.. so tired leh!! Then i made my way to the house.. The student's mom was scolding the kidz harshly because he failed his exams... i think all the subjects. But it's all in himself.. Hmmm i'll label the kid as EN for easy identification. Well.. when i went into the room, EN was cursing his mother!! Haiz.. Though it's not common to hear him say that, but it's really so offensive. I mean, EN's only in primary 5, and every time i have to withstand his vulgarities... He always put his blame on his mother for everything, and stuff.. he's one who don't treasure what he has, and that's a sad thing. Screening through his exam papers, made me so angry [i can feel my heart beating very loudly]. He has so many questions that he knows, but what he's concerned is to just do it and get out of the classroom pronto! Haiz.. even i also dunno how to help him too.. :(

Anyway, after CG i noticed that there's a letter for me from MOE.. Well, it's regarding my NIE application. I was rejected!! The letter goes like this

Dear Miss Ching

APPLICATION FOR A TEACHING POSITION
IDENT NO: S80xxxxxx REF NO: 2003xxxx

Thank you to your application for a teaching position

2 I regret to inform you that your application has not been
successful.

3 Thank you for your interest in the teaching profession. We wish
you all the best in your future endeavours.


Yours Sincerely



Hmmm.. actually i half-expected this. But well, it's ok lor. I mean, judging from the past few days of teaching and stuff like that.. feeling stressed and considering this. But i prayed about it, and i know that God's will is not for me to be a teacher.. He sees that i can't take the pressure of it. It's ok.. I know that God has a greater plan in store for me. So... i'm not sad. I hasn't even shed any tears , and i won't shed any tears over it. [i'm taking this real easy, much more than my driving test ah]