Ok before anyone speculates what the stupid buzz is about, i'm just angry... plain angry.
Remember 2 posts down? 2nd Grade citizen. Well, BAH!! So what if i am? As a gal i should have known that this will be my erm grading. But i just simply refuse to comply to it. I kept to the belief that the folks will not carry such beliefs, and will treat everyone equally.. Though situations are not like what i really wanted to happen, and usually the bias will happen, i hung on what i believe in.
Well i'm sounding like some one who li4 jing4 cang1 sang1 huh? hahaha. Well... guess emotionally i have come to a point where that i need to 'explode' for a bit, in order for me to be empty, before being 'filled' again.
Actually, it's a very sad thing, because, i've been trying to suppress this anger, MAN! I don't even suppose that i will write about it anyway. 2nd grade. What's wrong with being 2nd grade? I am who i am. i will not degrade myself to a further 3rd grade. haha. Do i sound really sadistic? Haha, i won't kill myself or make any statements that i will regret later. The Holy Spirit has warned me: Don't you say anything that you will regret later. I hold my peace!
But in the midst of this emotional struggle, i realise how good God is. I guess, He's the only PERSON i can ever trust all my secrets with. Anyway, [there was supposed to be another statement at this blank which i've taken out, because it's something i felt that i will regret for the rest of my life should it ever be posted] this stupid issue has plagued me [there's supposedly another statement here, which i will not post] and i will put it behind me. Because i decided to act blur about such issues from now on. Why live life to be so xin1 ku3??? I'll take it with a pinch of salt. =)
God is the strength of my heart!
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