The nicest dream this year

Yesterday, the cg message was on having a passion for the Lord.

During ministry time, i was very reminded of my life as a Christian for the past 10 years......
How i prayed earnestly to join a ministry, praying without ceasing for the anointing to play guitar for cg (which i'm super rusty now :( ), praying for wisdom, the ability to related, to minister to people, desiring much to be a CGL, get water baptized...

But now, looking at my life, it's been like all these are of the past. Yeah, there are times where i wished i was when i was a youth at 17 years old, being fervent for the Lord.

Not that i'm backslided, just not that fervent in prayer. Sometimes my life takes a turn and i get discouraged. Sometimes blaming God, blaming people around me for the things that has happened. ALL the time, the issues really stretch me in my faith. At times, i'm hanging on a thin line. I've really been there and not to be lukewarm, i choose to run back to God. But there are other times where i just lukewarm for a bit, just don't want to move at all.

Leader said that many things that i've been through, it's been birth forth by prayer. I agree. And I WANT THAT KIND OF LIFE...

Daily prayer (hmmm), reading the bible (i'm still at Proverbs since... January :( )

But i want to put GOD First.....

I remembered my desire to go to Bible School when i've finished my diploma. I remembered that my parents were livid...

My passion to study God's word is increasing with every Sermon on the Mount session.

Last night, i had a dream. I dreamt that i was in SOT.... It seems so real, and it's really like u know, learning the word with joy, i was filled daily in the word of God... until..

*The large palm of my dad banged on my door.

I was rudely awake. But i remembered that i was in SOT.... I know it was that, though no words were communicated. I think dreams are supposed to be silent.

I'm really hoping to go to SOT in either 2009, 2010, 2011.

I'm seriously hoping that this dream will become real. Now... i need to re-build my life with GOD first.