Feeling under the weather

Yeah, i haven't been blogging. Has been... well busy, and kinda stressed out by the weather

You must be thinking: It's none of your business wha.

Right, when u are sweating like crazy in this humid weather, and feeling feverish at times living in a hotspot.

Just last night, i was feeling a bit not so well, when i was feeling really quite bad: wondering if i had fever as i felt really like-feverish (anyway i didn't have la). And kena suan by my colleague saying i got Dengue. CHOI!

Never, never want to experience this. I had a 'taste' of it (Read my previous entry) and can't imagine if i really kena. But trusting and believing that i won't lah. God's protecting me :)

It's been kinda a tiring week i guess. First 2 days are pretty hectic with meetings after meetings... Gonna have ppl joining the coy (Yes, AM, SE and DEV please come in asap), and ppl exiting. Come to think of it, it's quite exciting amist the rising temperature and temperaments.

I mean, as a HR, i guess, it's not just about taking in information. Like what Boss said during one review that i was involved, it's not just about having the information, but translating the information into something usable. And, well, yes, i'm seriously guilty about this :(

But however, yesterday while i was praying, i was praying that i can really be a blessing, be the Salt and the light, and wherever i am, i want to be the problem-solver, not the problem-creator.

And suddenly i was meditating on what i was praying about when i found myself saying that i am to look at myself as a Manager. It's not about having a Manager title, you know? It's about knowing what your role exactly is. So i was kinda 'huh?' But then i understood. I have to be a problem solver. I do not look at myself as just someone who just follow instruction. I have to take in the information, and reproduce it for whoever it is (be it my boss, other bosses.... bla bla bla) and challenge it when it doesn't feel so justified. Yeah. This sounds like a good revelation to share.

So, I AM A MANAGER, ok!!

Titles are really nothing u know? Just like what my fren at IA was saying. She just got promoted to Assistant Manager, but if she were to work at other places, she will be just an exec. But, her scope of work doesn't change. She's still doing the same things. Just the title change.

Just like you may be a so-and-so manager, but ur managing skills suck big time.... You may be just an so-and-so assistant, but you are able to manage things well. So, does titles matter? It doesn't.

I'm a Curtin grad and it's a Tier 2 university. But it doesn't mean that my performance is worst that one with a Tier 1 university degree (Eg NUS....) I mean, i'm proud of where i come from. I know that my performance so far, is maybe passable, and have plenty of room for improvement. But i think, looking at it, it's really in the attitude of saying : "I'M SORRY, I'LL DO MY BEST TO IMPROVE". as compared to :" I'M A SO AND SO GRAD....!" (It's crazy lah.. so cocky for what. Performance matters more that the school you come from la)

I guess being in a Tier 2 university set me in this perspective, and it has shaped me in my thinking and really help me to strive to improve on a consistent basis. Though it is really true lah, that many employers look to qualification and class of honours in hiring, but does it really matter? What matters is the attitude and the performance ya?

Ok, realized that i have been rattling on (an aftermath of missing blogging). Er.. as i was saying that there have been some interesting projects that i'm doing (handling or facilitating. But facilitation will also mean managing it and make sure it happens). I think beyond reading stuff such as time management, i think i need to learn how to plan my time. And it so happened that there's a TPM training that is happening next week. I've request to sit in, so hopefully i can catch something on time-planning. I mean... i think the technical part will feel very Greek to me. For now, it's back to reading books and websites on it!!

Since i've finished my current read, i shall borrow a book on PM.

Ever since i've visited the library, i think there's been some improvement in my work, which i'm thankful for. Let's see what i have read:

1. Time Power
2. Dun remember the title but it's related to time management
3. Idiot's guide to create a blog (something like that)
4. The gal's guide to money planning?
5. How to do a good job and go home on time (a nice read, just maybe too thin? Talk briefly on PM like scrapping on the surface)

I'm planning on reading something to do with managing time lines, but will it delve back to time management again? I mean, it's obviously different things. Sigh!

Need to plan my timeline better.... in my prioritizing of my daily timeline, it seems that i'm running a bit off-track... Need to give myself 1 hour contingency to response to last min urgent stuff.....

Anyone with good information on this pls comment or tag. Thanks!!!

I hope my next entry comes soon. For now, i shall rest my eyes. Enjoy, and may the weather improve.