Season of challenges

It has been a challenging week, with the shift and breaking down in front of my MD. Well, i guess the stress level has been increasing, esp with being live in front of xx millions of worshippers who log on to www.chc.org.sg/tv . Well, you see, i'm from Chorus Board Ministry, and i did quite a bit of errors for the whole weekend.

Sorry guys for the disappointment. I wasn't in the best of my performance this week. I guess tiredness plays a part, and also the spiritual part.

I was really very drained after the shift and realizing how important my role in the company is, and how i really want to be the best, to shine for Christ in the marketplace. I have been plonking onto the bed after i reach home. Yah, this is the only time i can just relax for a bit, and just blog out my feelings.

For the past few weeks, the church has been trying to record a Chinese DVD that will be given out to the Chinese speaking world to be a blessing. So, we have been singing in Chinese. I heard that last week had some incidents that happened. This week is another adventure week. I was quite overwhelmed by the praise, esp the Chinese ones. And, and of course, expecting the unexpected to happen, i pressed the cursed num lock, if not it will be a perfected song. Haiz. And today, there was some confusion on my part.... And sorry Jace, know u kena diao by Poh for our errors, be it mains or sideboard.

Spiritually, hmmm, well, wasn't really that prepared. I'm not very prayed up as i just pengz after reaching home. Need to pray more, lah

I saw the A&B video. People were testifying of their blessings when they gave. And i looked at myself and feel so discouraged. One thing that was really running through my mind is this:

~God, Have You forgotten about me???~

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I want to increase my value. Someone teach me how!!! I need to find ways to increase my income. Tuition is well.... not really on my list, but if i need to, i will.

Waiting for my turn to come!! :)